August 13, 2005
yellow day
August 13, 2005
received the mother tongue results
pretty satisfied with it
not been doing well for mother tongue since i-dunno-when anyway
received a b4.
think it was my oral & listening dat pulled me down
had only a pass. haha..
my other closer friends had b3 and above
maybe this's the only factor dat's putting me down
all in all, the results have not affected my mood (:
the thing is
the o level english oral i took today
the reading passage was okok
i tink i really garamgaboh in the conversation part
i was forced to do the thing i dreaded to do all the while
i had to lie..
wasn't any personaly experience..
"talk about the time when u didn't say something u wanted to"
something lidat la..
lost..
i noe i did make a natural mistake by repeating the question to dem..
i was like "talk abt the time when i didn't say something i wanted to?"
die.. haiz..
didn't feel this down after the chinese oral
probably cos i expected more for my english..
i even said "erm" and "la"
once each
lin xian pour me cold water
she say once i say these, i really die liao.
piangz.. thot der'd be some encouraging stuff coming from her
haha.
nevermind.
some things are really unpredictable
i can't help my character
if i'm like this, i'm like this.
one moment i'm treated this way
the other another way
i'm not even sure where i stand and how to treat others anymore
it's so sickening to feel lost
i dunno wad to do to improve things
i hate feeling helpless.
i noe when i have had enough fun.
i noe when i have to stop
but now, it seems i've done too much damage to turn things over.
god, help me out ah..
wad shld i do
change or try juz treat others based on their character
haiz.. it's so difficult having to accommodate to others.
ccheriee